lumière de monde
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
And You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
matt redman
entries
Friday, October 19, 2007
Ok im typign this second time cos soemthign went wrong wif the publishing in the first round. Basically ben seck's com has some error n i havta use it to type this entry since my com has problems as well. I cant blog la. sianz.
Anyway i wanna thank God for the tiems that He has never given up on me, how He has constantly send ppl bside me, guidign me n leading me onto the right path. Without these people in my life, i think i wud hav backslidden n died 1000x times. Thank God for His goodness and His people. =]. So anyway so much has happened in my life, its strange how we cna b so determined to do osmehting for God at one instance and totally lose it in the next. I wanna devote my life whole heartedly to God, but there are so many hindrances to this seemingly unachievable goal. We hear of so many inspirational stories, how God cna touch lives, transform ppl, heal, the list is endless. And the same thing hits me over n over again, y cnat i b like them? And hte answer is evident, its me. Hmm. I really dunno howta work out all the problems im dealing with, but mayb i dun havta, God will make a way. I believe. I envision my life 20 years from now. Hey! Im gonan b a changed man, a better person, a stronger person in my Christian faith, and ppl will neo that i changed for the bttr for God. But that change does not come from empty talk, it starts now. I pray God will help me to devote myself wholeheartedly surrendering all to him todae. =].
Sunday, September 23, 2007
ok im back after a logn time. my com is crazy la. i cant enter my blogger somehting wrong. i think its on a hiatus or soemthing. haha.
anyway im at seck jing wen's house and lookign at haachi la. super cute pelase. one day i shall dog-nap it n den i will make it mine. change its name or something. =p. n seck is actually studying now, he best lor tried to entice me by sleeping on his bed juz now. i feel super sleepy la. but then i shall perservere. i need to go home n play ro and do qt n do etc etc stuff. haha.
so many things happen lor since my last entry. u all shud juz forget the last few entries i think. i dun wanna delete it cos it serves as a gentle reminder. =]. i shall press on, liek esther say, must hav the tenacity. trust God. =].
nothign much more to blog abt now. i shall tok to the dog. =]. haachi forver~!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
i fell.
i picked myself up.
i tried my best.
but i c no results.
its over.
its the end.
no more misery.
no more pain.
no more troubles.
no more excusess.
no more of "no mores".
im free! im free to go!
Now tell me why do i feel so empty inside?
Why do i feel my heart hurt?
Why do i cry myself to sleep each night?
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
the pressure is on, and it hits me so hard as the days go by. Im not refering to prelims, im refering to my christian walk.
You noe sometimes i really admire the christians, not becos i am one, but because they remain faithful even though they face persecution after persecution. Its kinda irritating sometimes, and each time i hear some one arguing or criticising christianity, it makes me feel that the world is becomign bleaker and even more hardened. Its hard not to feel that that way, when even the closest ppl ard u begin to view u wif skepticism and its juz really annoying.
I mean how many times have we heard the non believing ppl say christians are so-and-so-and-so, and then they laugh abt it. I dunno i think its juz really wrong n disrespectful. Take for example the south korean team that went to taliban, my classmates actually turned ard to me and ask me why "u all christians like that de ah?" i mean like wads the problem, why cant we do it? u noe. And then becos of one issue they link it back to christianity n they complaint abt christians n how we act again. i dun c that happening to the muslims. Like why dun u go ask the muslims, "haiyo y u all liek that de anyhow bomb ppl?", the answer is qutie duh rite? its becos they hav no link at all to this suicide bombers, n so we udn anyhow link them to our muslim frenz. im not being mean or anything, im juz using the muslims as n example. True, we christians do send alot of mission trips alot but u got to noe the full story before u jump into conclusions.
For christians, we believe that onli those that believe in Jesus can go to heaven, soemthing liek a pass, but it still doesnt guarantee the entry to heaven. But the point is that, at the stage of our conversion, we are deemed saved and thats it, if we die we go to heaven, whiel the rest may not go to heaven. I dun really care whether ure trying to argue this point wif me, abt whether non believers can go to heaven, my point is that, we are gg n ure not. N then thinkin abt it, y do christians try so hard to reach out to u ppl? Its qutie disheartening if u hear ppl say "haiya church again" "u all onli go find frenz" and "onli suck money onli" that sorta stuff. Like think deeper please. Why do ur frenz persist on bringing u to church, its like we dun need that little bit of money that u wud giv, im not even sure the visitors actually giv, and frenz u can make frenz everywhere, church isnt the onli avenue rite. We are concerned and we care for u ppl thats y we persist n hold on to our hope. Its not liek we get credits or merits or wad not, we do not accumulate points that eventually guarantee our access to the pearly gates. think. n dun criticise all the time. Wud it hurt to go for juz one day, ok afew hrs to be exact? I dunno, sometimes i jzu wish for more understanding n a deeper n more thoughtful view b4 u ppl make comments the next time.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Woah. The prelims are less than 1 week away and im playing RO. Somebody slap me, ok i didnt mean that literally so pelase dun do anythign physical to me. Anyway everybody in class is so hyped up n enthusiastic abt studying but i get so sluggish n tired whenever i hit the books. I need to be disciplined and self motivated. God! Where am i goin to find those stuff. Haiz.
Anyway on a lighter note, ok i dunno y isit LIGHTER cos the 3 boxes of donuts from donut factory was kidna bulky and heavy, i got donuts from donut factory. Haha. It was suepr nice la, i feel liek slappign my dad noe. He eat liek so many le, den say "i dun think its that fantastic". He actually compared it to old chang kee?! I dun c any link at all so i guess its his way of showiing his disapproval of something? =p. Haha.
I need to study study study and my left eye hasnt stop twitching since saturday. Its not superstitious but i guess soemthing is abt to happened. =P. Haha. I think wad wai yin said was rite i need sleep. BADLY. Ok then i shall end here n continue again next time. =p.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
I need desperation in my life. For God that is. I feel im not doing my part as a christian well. Though i mention God perhaps 10 or even twenty tiems day, i think its too external, im not internalising that truth yet. I dun act the way that God wants me to be, i think im depending too much on human knowledge, too much on my own strength. Its funny that i was thinking atb this issue juz a month ago, liek how do we truly rely on God but i nvr seem to get the answer. I think God works in mysterious ways, liek when He wans u to noe something, it just coems naturally. Liek quite cool rite? =p. Anyway i think i need to put God in the centre, just think abt everything b4 i act on it. WWJD. I think that shall b my motto for now, or at least until i got my life in the direction carefully chosen for me. Im happy that i serve a faithful God, who does nto discrimate or mock or scorn others or looks down on those that are not worthy for His love. He is generous, great and almighty. I love Him and He loves me and you. I think my life is just so blessed and wonderful. Thank You Jesus =].
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
YAY im finally 18! Really thank God for the people He has have bless me wif. Today was great, i was thinking only a couple of ppl wud make it for dinner todae, and in all there were liek 10 of us. Kinda touched =p. Haha. Anyway minds was fun we shud go back again, next time let wai yin sit away from me so she doesnt hit my hand. And erm, thanks for the cake. Not bad la, quite nice. Haha. And oh ill liek to thank the class for the shirt. Yupz. I think thats it, i dun mind belated presents ppl, so its still not too late. Alrite, its late now ciaoz. =]